home.

Its where your heart is.

Today, my heart skipped a beat as I took the next step with my new love: my house in Milledgeville.

I love it. I'm in love with it.

Its green, and beautiful...kind of like those eyes I like.

This is such a blessing, such an amazing gift in my life that I've been given the amazing opportunity to have. 

Its a bit noisy, though. I feel like I'm in an apartment in the city.

I can hear all the cars, sirens, and drunk 3am street walkers at night.

But during the day, there is such a peace to my new, quaint, green, beautiful house.

I'm finally getting to play house.

I have a kitchen!

Goodness gracious, THIS is wonderful. Not just the house, but this new found release.

Chapter 18 of life is coming to an end, and what a beautiful ending that is.

Where I stood.

I'm not who I was, and I'm not who I am.

Today, I followed your narrative and walked as if North Clark street was my runway.

"The city lights laid out before us, and your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder."

So, where to now?

WORD.

I haven't been diving into God's word as much lately. I've been so distracted. Last night, I was asked why I was feeling down, and almost immediately asked how long its been since I've been in the word. BINGO! My heart has been troubled because I haven't jumped into God's word! So, I started to.
This is so powerful.
In My Utmost for His Highest for today it says, "God never guides us at some time in
the future, but always here and now. Realize that the Lord is here
NOW, and the freedom you receive is immediate." 

THE FREEDOM WE RECEIVE IS IMMEDIATE!  Thats awesome. 

So, from that, I took the scripture he references (John 14:1 and 14:27) Jesus says this, "Don't let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and also trust in Me." Then in 14:27 He says, "I am leaving you with a gift- peace of mind and heart. And the peace I give is a gift the world cannot give. So don't be troubled or afraid."

The peace you have asked for is upon you. Clean I call you, clean you came.

Go after it today, seek out questions, and notice the spirit in the immediate response. 

Sick & tired.

I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.

I'm annoyed with being annoyed.

I am done with being done.

I want to live in peace, sleep in peace, love in peace and out of love.

God, you are so good. You are so faithful. You provide every time.

You run after me. I run away and you RUN after me. 

You are running after me.

I have found the answer: its to love you and be loved by you alone.

Today, I will laugh, I will smile, I will rest in the beauty of this week in the first place I see it: the natural world around me.

Thank you, Father.

I'm there, wherever that is, but not for long.

Make believe

"Mountains groan and seas roar because all they know

is you for who you are, 

bright morning star.

Jesus, make me believe like they believe."

I am resting in the gifts of Shane&Shane and filled with encouragement backed by determination.

Bring it on, world.

I'm ready.

rest:

I need it.

restitution:

I have it.

peace:

I'm aware of it.

love:

I got it.

Beautiful Friday.

Good morning, Good Friday.

How beautiful the blood?

I will rest in this.

Restitution

noun: the restoration of something lost or stolen to it's proper owner.

"This is restitution for the love you've thrown away." - Settle Down by Cartel

Today was restitution for the ambition I lost sight of. 

Goodness, gracious, God is so good! My heart has been restored and just in time! 

Happy easter everyone :)

Fire.

Today, my heart felt heavy and broken. So, I started reading Romans 8, that we are more than conquerers, and that NOTHING can separate me from the love of God. I felt a need for confidence in who God says He is and who God says I am.

I’ve been reading a lot about and studying the idea that we are literally like vines on a branch, and from that understanding what comes of trees like paper, or fire and the characteristics of the two. I looked up, “He set me on fire and I’m burning alive” and Google gave me this girl's blog from Thailand named Amanda from November 16, 2008 which spoke SO much truth to my soul in this moment. God did that! He completely spoke her you and her words and confirmed that He is who He says He is and I am who He says I am.

He set me on fire, and I am burning a live.

I am of the vine. I produce fruit, shade, paper, and fire for my God.

“I want to yearn for you,

I want to burn with passion for you and only you.

Lord, I want to yearn.”

-Shane&Shane

"He set me on fire, and I am burning alive.

With His breath in my lungs, I am coming undone.

I cannot hold it in and remain composed.

Loves taken over me, and so I propose the letting myself go.

I am letting myself go.

You are my joy."

-You are my joy by David Crowder

Paper and fire.

I am beginning to wear thin.

I'm feeling flimsy, and dry. 

The smallest spark might catch to me and burn me to ashes.

next step: beauty for ashes.

Lord, root me so deep in you.

Live in me, of the vine.

"If there's blood on roots, then there's blood on the branches."

-The Chariot

Fire and paper.

I'm going to make the most of this.

step one: rest

step two: inhale.

step three: jump

step four: exhale.

step five: breathe.

live.

Badass.

"The fullness of Your grace is here with me

The richness of Your beauty’s all I see

The brightness of Your glory has arrived

In Your presence God, I’m completely satisfied

For You I sing I dance

Rejoice in this divine romance

Lift my heart and my hands

To show my love, to show my love"

I want to live in a divine romance. 

I want to be divinely placed into a romance.

I want to live for divine appointment, and love in your name.

"Oh, holy one, your story is deep, I will look at the whole rather than the not. 

You place conversations divinely and you open up our eyes." 

I want to be like Paul - completely lose sight of this world and be fixated, lost, and consumed with my glorious King. Not to mention, to quote Brett Shields, "Paul is a badass."