Reminiscent

I'm sitting in a place that I haven't been to in over a year, trying to remember where I was this time a year ago. What I was feeling, who I was beginning to become, and then looking at now.  It amazes me what time, and the power of God, can do.

I love Auburn. For so long I was dead set on going to school here, I wanted to football, the community, the people, the art. But the Lord called my heart somewhere different, and I am so glad that He did. 

Last night, I couldn't sleep. I was wide awake thinking about this time last year, and my mind was bouncing all over the place and all of the sudden this feeling of clarity came over me.

I realized that who I am isn't defined by where I was or where I've been, or even where I'm going...but I am defined by WHO'S I am.

It was a comfort and a fear all at once. 

One of the biggest insecurities that I have struggled with in the past is being single. I laughed when I realized that I am as single as single gets, and instead of it pounding at the insecurities of my heart, I felt free. It was a freeing realization to know that I am so sick of relationships. it was a new feeling, thats for sure, but I love it.

Come on now guys, this is no diss to you. I have met and even dated some of the most wonderful men of God  I could even imagine. Some of you have shown me an illumination of love that serves as an encouragement for when and if I ever meet my husband. My image of a godly man has been shattered and re-build constantly, and the Lord works through every situation.

But I am fed up, and loving it.

That is my thought today, and my heart in this season.

ps- I love fall and can't WAIT for it to fully be here.