Peace and Empty Hands

I am so sick of things in my life going full circle.

I'm sick of falling into patter after pattern of my own selfishness and my own sin.

Lord, sustain me. Fight with me.

My heart is weak and my spirit fails, but you are the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

Do away with the evil in me, blow through it and trade my ashes for beauty.

I'm starting to realize again, like I have many times before, that I cannot do this alone.

I'm praying for strength, I'm praying for trust, I'm praying for grace and mercy.

I'm just praying.

And fighting.

And running.

And receiving.

And living.

Amen.