Coffee-ing.

Photo by: John Fogleman

This morning, I realized lines I need to set for myself.

Today, I learned what determination looks like for me.

Today, I saw one of my best friends in a way I've never seen her before.

This afternoon, I set those lines.

This evening, I rested in a community that just isn't enough for me.

This evening, I prayed for the Lord to sustain me with His voice and for the choice to walk in truth.

Tonight, I'm going to rest in this. I'm going to sit with my coffee, and maybe my pipe, and I will simply just be. I'm resting in the fact that I am good enough, I will find what the Lord longs for me to seek, and I will live in that encouragement.

I will remember my mission in America and my heart in Estonia. 

I will fight for those hearts who do not know Him, for the hearts that He has placed in my life to seek and to love; the hearts He is jealous for.

Today, I replaced a memory of someone who stole my heart with no warning, with no remorse, and with no backbone, with a memory of encouragement and beauty; a memory to re-watch as the moment I realized how much I love one of my closest friends and the lengths I will go to for her. I am aware of my hearts purpose there, and I will seek it out.

Thank you Blackbird. You provide such an amazing environment for me to relax in your giant red chairs with the warmth of community, the smell of coffee, and the hint of hope in the air; a slight glimpse of what is to come for my growing heart in this small town. Thank you for making me feel safe and limitless. For allowing me to feel like I know no stranger, like I'm on an episode of "Cheers." Thank you for your open arms, and not to mention your cheap prices :)

Lord, sustain me with your voice and the choice to walk in truth.

Hosanna, Hosanna, Hosanna in the highest.